I was 17 when I came in here and I would drink a handle of Vodka a day to myself. I had no rhyme or reason to my life. I didn’t care if I woke up in the morning. I didn’t care about anything. I literally had no friend in the world except for that bottle of Vodka waiting for me in the morning and I just decided to drink my life away because that’s what made sense at the time.
When I came to treatment I literally thought there would be bars on the windows, like I actually thought that there was going to be that little nurse that walks down the hall with the trays and I was like here’s your pills. I remember I felt comfortable and was having fun. I didn’t feel like I was forced to get sober. I never felt like I was told like you have to get sober otherwise you can’t live, like I never felt like that. It was like I was allowed to make this decision on my own. I didn’t just get force fed. And for me, I became very close with everyone in the house. I actually kept in contact with most of the people and I think that helped make it even better because if you have all these people to keep close with, they kind of help keep you on track.
They help keep you going, so you guys can kind of always call each other and be like hey remember when, I am going through a rough patch and I need a friend. It kind of creates this bond that you will forever have because there are certain people that you can go through treatment with and it is a very intense and a very special process. Once you go through it with someone, it never really goes away.
Since treatment, I came here and I had not graduated high school, then I graduated high school and I went on to college and I graduated college in four years which was beyond my wildest dreams. I can’t believe I actually did that. And I made it through college without drinking, without partying, without any of it which I never envisioned, which I never thought it would happen. And I don’t think I would have made it through college had I not been sober because I probably would have died at a party, for sure, without a doubt. It was hard when I first got sober and it got easier as time went on and now it is just a way of life. I don’t even think about it. It’s just, kind of, me.